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WTF????

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 15:38:26 GMT

This past Sunday, Jen and I went to McDonald's to eat some lunch after a quick shopping trip. As we're eating, I happen to look past her over her shoulder and at the kids in the Playplace. What the FUCK happened to the Playplace???? What was there was not a true Playplace. There was ONE friggin' tube there, and the kids weren't even paying attention to it. No, they were in the center of the room at the VIDEO GAME CENTER!! Uhm, hello? Kids, you can play your games at home..the point of the Playplace was to have fun in a jungle gym/carnival type environment I thought, after you were done eating, not to do what you do every damned day at home anyway. It was special, and sacred. Hell, there's not even a ball pit there anymore! Ugh, I was so disgusted I couldn't even look at the kids in there anymore, I was afraid I was going to go in there and yell at them to get off the games and enjoy what was left of the Playplace or to go outside or something and enjoy that! Kids these days..if it doesn't come with moving pictures, it seems like they're just not interested in it. Kinda puts the high post-HS illiteracy rates into perspective though, I guess. Anyway, I have a mission this summer. I'm going to look at some McDonald's restaurants that I know have Playplaces and see if any have even a halfway decent Playplace. I'm probably just setting myself up for a huge disappointment, but I have to see. And if I can't find any, well, then I will have eaten a lot of McChicken sandwiches (mmmm...) and will promptly begin weeping for the future.

Nudge

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 00:32:13 GMT

Heh, I finally checked my email..someone sent me a LJ nudge saying I hadn't updated in 6 months. Lol, it really has been that long, hasn't it? Well, I'm updating now but I still doubt it'll become a regular habit. Still working on my Associate's degree, hopefully I'll get it sometime. =\ Still working 40+ hours as assistant deli manager at the shitty convenience store, and I'm still playing World of Warcraft non-stop almost. That's where all my free time really goes..very addicting. I'm still afraid to approach anyone that I find attractive, so it's been almost 2 years since I dated anyone. Jen and I are no longer talking, which is good..I think it was long overdue. Seems our friendship was really more about what she wanted..in other words, I was everything she wanted/needed when she wanted/needed it, but what I wanted/needed didn't really matter, just as long as I was still there. Eh, she's 21 now, doesn't need me to buy her alcohol anymore anyway. So yeah, been 2 months since we talked practically. I dunno, my life is just..in limbo at the moment it feels like. I need to figure out what I want before I can make any major changes to my life. I would like to drive, anywhere really, once the spring comes..love driving long distances in warm weather with the windows down. :)

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 10:20:18 GMT

I just want everyone to know..Do NOT play World of Warcraft..it has sucked up my last 2 months completely..hell, i might have updated in that time..but NOOOOO..friggin game..i escaped for a second to write this..sorry Nyse..i tried since May to get my vacation scheduled but its still a No Go..hell, im not even allowed 2 days off in a row..im trying tho..i swear..

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 19:16:33 GMT

You're a little gold key, and you unlock other
people's hearts. Your kindness and willingness
to be there for those you care about lets
people open up to you knowing they will be
accepted. People will rely on you, but be
careful not to give more than you have.

What sort of key are you and what do you unlock?
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Tue, 08 Feb 2005 21:07:25 GMT

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq

• You must tell 14 people about this game.
• Jen is the one that you love.
• Racine is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about Eric.
• Rich is the one who knows you very well.
• Maggie is your lucky star.
• Master of Puppets is the song that matches with the person in number 3 (Jen).
• Bizarre Love Triangle is the song for the person in 7 (Racine).
• I Heard It Through The Grapevine is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and Breaking Up Is Hard To Do is the song telling you how you feel about life
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Wed, 02 Feb 2005 17:41:03 GMT

Just one thing to say..Motown Philly. It made the night complete. :)

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 16:40:45 GMT

I fucking hate people. Like people who want me to come in on my day off and people who want me to work different hours the day before school. And especially people who lie saying how they can't go out of the house because of the snow, so I shouldn't pick them up, only to go out later with someone else. Fuck it all.

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 16:45:01 GMT

Ok, Me + Alcohol = Asshole
So sorry to all I offend..I just simply can't drink anymore. =\

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 08:58:47 GMT

October 7th was my last post? Damn, it's been a while..and all I'm really posting are quizzes, too. =\
Well, ok, quick update on my love life, I guess..sometime before Christmas I found someone who wanted to date me only for me to realize that while I am/was attracted to her, I didn't want to date her. Still want to date the same person I've wanted to date for a while though. It's good to be vague. :)

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Life sucks...

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 06:02:09 GMT

Sometimes I do wish for the sweet release of death. LIfe is just so horrible right now..work sucks, its a horrible place with too many hours, too late hours, and too much to do. Plus, the pay is crappy. But unfortunately, I can't really get another job because of bullshit from Rite Aid. And all the work stuff is affecting my school stuff.
School sucks, too..because I don't think I'm cut out for all the Physics and Calculus that I need for my major. Sure, I feel I'm close and could do it (maybe) if I didn't have so much shit hanging over my head from work..but I have to work, otherwise I can't possibly pay for car insurance, gas, surcharges, and bills to my parents. So it sucks both ways. I have to go to school to get a job that I can use to pay off crap, but with my current job, I can't afford to go to school. Over the past week, I've certainly thought of..bad things. I mean, what's really stopping me? I'm stuck now as it is, and there's not much I can do about it.
The only thing that does stop me is Jen. I mean, yeah, she's only my friend (although I wish with all my heart it were more..), but thinking of her and how it would affect her makes me not want to. Not even the thought of how it would affect my family or my other friends does that. Just her. But she's still only my friend, and let's face it, that depresses me a bit, too.
Ugh..I shouldn't think about this right now..I'm going to find another job, and if I have to spend even longer in school, well, my dad can go fuck himself if he wants to give me a lecture. Hell, that'll probably make him want to stop paying for school, which will add more stress to my life, but it will be worth it, I hope. I still plan on going for my A+ certification, and if I can get a job that will pay me more, I can actually afford to do that. And if I get certified, I can use the money that the jobs I could get with that to go finish school. Perhaps I'll even change my major from computer engineering to something else in computers..something I like better and think I can do better. I don't know. I just want to cry at this point..and quit my fucking job.

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 17:04:41 GMT

Bah. ::kicks self:: I hate missed chances. =\

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 04:42:44 GMT

Oy, today was the first day I've worked in a week. Now I'm all exhausted.
Vacation was fun, got to do some stuff I wanted to do, not everything though. And now because of my vacation I'm going to be broke for about a month. :) So lovely. Heh.
It was worth it, though. In spite of having to deal with my brother's attitude and feeling sorry for himself.
The best part about all of it is..I have another week's worth of vacation to take anytime by the middle of next May. :) Joy-gasm!

Vacation!

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 09:10:48 GMT

Fuckin' finally! I got one of my week's vacations! I've decided to suspend, or at least lessen, my diet during this week because I don't want to feel confined at all. :)

Things I want to do this week:

Go Go-karting.
Go to the club and try to have fun.
Play pool.
Go see Denyse.
Go out to eat with someone.
Get laid.
See Alien vs. Predator.
Play mini-golf.
Obtain world peace.
Buy and watch my new Yu Yu Hakusho.
Buy Gaby and Andrea bday presents.
Finish my CD.
Get drunk with Andrea for her birthday.
Buy a new belt and whatever else I want while shopping. :)
Hunt humans for sport.
Go to the beach.
Have a drink at Jenkinson's.
Catch up on PvP.
Play teamed Spades.
Play Asshole.
Swim the English Channel.
Play Kings.
Have some pizza..preferably Domino's. :)
Buy a non-anime DVD (or DVD boxset).

Ok, that's my list. I'll edit this post and bold all the ones I did. =P

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 08:28:44 GMT

You know, there are times in my life where I believe that my only purpose is to be people's friend..to make them feel better..to help them through hard times..to be a shoulder to cry on. And I'm good at that. I like to make people happy. Doing that makes me glad. But when I want a relationship with someone so that maybe I can possibly be as happy as I make others, I can't have it. No one is willing to jeopardize the happiness I give them for that..and I'm too damned nice to be angry at them for that. Sure, I can get angry for that..but I get over it because everyone is different and have reasons for what they want. But when it happens over and over, regardless of the person but the same outcome, how am I not supposed to feel like I'm stuffed to the side, simply there to bring happiness to the people who feel they need me, while in no way considering how I need them? Ugh, so depressed..

The brain would like to explode..

Thu, 01 Jul 2004 08:49:55 GMT

mile (statute) = 5,280 feet or 1,760 yards...1.6093 kilometers
mile (nautical) = 2,025 yards...1.852 kilometers

Why in God's name is a mile longer on land than over water???? It's a freakin' mile! Why the hell is it 265 yards longer, nautical??? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fri, 11 Jun 2004 08:15:49 GMT

I hate being lied to. More than anything else. Anyone who knows me knows that being honest with my will earn my respect and most likely my forgiveness. Lying to me to protect my feelings or to save yourself from guilt will do nothing more than piss me off royally, lose respect points, and hinder your chances for me to forgive and forget. Fuck you.

The ride home..

Wed, 12 May 2004 22:03:35 GMT

Well, a thunderstorm seems to have appeared out of nowhere (for me, at least), and with the sheer amounts of lightning and flash flooding, my ride home from work was quite interesting. First, I got about halfway home with no problems..but then I tried to get to Walnut Avenue from Lexington. Unfortunately, the curving street that connects the two ended up getting flooded at the stop sign at Walnut. And I mean flooded. See, I didn't quite understand why people were turning around in the street ahead of me, because I couldn't see an accident or anything. So, I just go driving along, lalala, until I finally see the lake that had somehow been dropped into the middle of the road and the 4 cars that were swamped in it. Of course, at this point I was pretty much right on top of the water, so I just said "Fuck it, I'm going through." It was fun having my boat of a car act like a boat..even though I did almost stall out, and that would have just been bad. But I made it through, laughing at the people who got stuck. Then I decided that I would never be able to make the left turn from the other side of Lexington onto Raritan. It turns out I was right, but I'll be damned if I didn't wish I hadn't gone down Walnut, because right near the bank I had to stop in traffic. And what happens as I'm stopped? A huge explosion and a great big, blue flash. See, it turns out a bolt of lightning hit the power transformer directly above my car. So as my car is being rained on by sparks from said transformer, I light a cigarette, attempt to keep my car from stalling, and do my best to get the hell out of there and home in one, non-smoldering piece. Needless to say, I made it home safe..but dammit, that was the most interesting drive home I've had in a long time.

Wed, 12 May 2004 21:46:08 GMT

OK, I should have posted this last night or this morning, but I was tired last night and I overslept this morning. Last night, Eric, Jen and I got into a conversation about Veronica, because of the dream I had the other day. Actually, it was Jen and I talking with Eric just sitting there on the table. As I was describing her to Jen, Eric kept making these disgusted faces and sounds. Now, Veronica was a pretty girl as far as I and others were concerned, and seeing him pass his judgement on her looks like that kinda upset me. It somehow got to the point where he said something to the tune of "I wouldn't have [slept with her]. I have standards." That set me off. First, it's not right for him to talk about her that way behind her back, and that comment was rather insulting to me, as well. It implied that I have no standards, either. So I came right back with "Yeah, and look where your standards have gotten you so far." That pissed him off enough to call me an asshole and go to bed, slamming the door. Now, I don't think I was wrong to say that. If you want to be an asshole and insult me, you should have no fucking right to get pissed when I do the same damned thing to you. Deal.

Kaiju

Tue, 11 May 2004 04:50:29 GMT

Didn't actually find a direct answer to what Kaiju was, but I have to admit, this was funny as hell..

What is Kaiju Big Battel?

Kaiju Big Battel is a modern conflict of epic proportions. Scattered throughout the galaxy is a monstrous mob of Kaiju - maniacal villains, ominous alien beasts, and gigantic, city-crushing monsters who are fighting for control of the globe, their volatile tempers periodically detonating into bouts of intergalactic sparring and senseless acts of violence.

Kaiju rumbles are nothing new - they've existed for millions of years, way back to the Triassic period. Monster scuffles have caused countless cataclysms: turbulent tornadoes, devastating earthquakes, stock-market crashes, geyser eruptions, forest fires, superpower bombing campaigns, and quite possibly, the fall of the Roman Empire. Ignorant humans have typically blamed such apocalyptic occurrences on Mother Nature, mortal transgression, and bad financial planning. But in truth, inexplicable disaster can almost always be traced back to a Kaiju Big Battel.

Kaiju Regulatory Commission

Planet Earth has always been under siege, and the first group of humans to recognize this was a covert committee of world leaders who called themselves the Kaiju Regulatory Commission (KRC). Ever since its underground conception, the KRC has been a highly secretive assembly - so secretive that the only thing publicly known about the KRC is its purported mission: 1) to monitor Kaiju mayhem; 2) to harness Kaiju aggression; 3) to coordinate strategies for protecting Earth against Kaiju threats.

As legend has it, the KRC's practices ran smoothly until late into the twentieth century, when one human-genius-turned-quasi-monster named Dr. Cube initiated a pathological quest for world domination. Not only did Cube crash third-world economies and create himself an army, but the weight of his crackbrained megalomania threw off the cosmic balance between good and evil.1 Since spinning the yin-yang of the universe like a yo-yo inevitably causes suffering - some call this bad karma - Cube's initiative instigated trouble.

American Celebrity

What happened was this: as the cult of American celebrity ballooned, the monsters became consumed with the desire for international stardom, gaggles of groupies, and autograph sessions at comic conventions. Many Kaiju became increasingly bumptious, self-possessed, and greedy, their egos expanding to unprecedented sizes.2 More and more frequently, these towering egos became bruised through silly, human-type melodrama (monster bumps monster at party and skirmish ensues), provoking angry Kaiju to pummel each another into a pulp. As more members of Big Battel began to hire handlers, publicists, and personal assistants, monster spats exploded daily. Finally, the KRC recognized that something had to be done immediately: the monsters and their egos were nearly out of control.

The global leaders' solution? They created the role of Kaiju Commissioner, a position that demanded round-the-clock supervision and tracking of every known Kaiju. Upon his appointment, the Kaiju Commissioner hatched a plan to keep Earth safe from these fiendish freaks: the 'Kaiju Big Battel', a maximum-security event where pent-up monster aggression could be unleashed without human casualty. To everyone’s relief, the Commissioner’s premiere sanctioned Kaiju Big Battel was a smashing success. Not only were millions of lives and private properties protected, but the common man became instantly enthralled and addicted to the thrill of the live Battel. To this day, humans have to see Big Battels to believe them.

1 Kaiju Big Battel is, and will always be, a manifestation of the conflict between good and evil.

2 Since a creature's ego tends to grow proportional to the size of its head, the average Kaiju ego swells to the height of a 10-story building. But the largest monster ego ever recorded was 63 stories tall (approximately 300 meters).

This was gotten from What Is Kaiju Big Battel, just in case someone wants to sue me or something for not crediting them. :)

It does somewhat explain how Largo got his job in MegaTokyo :)

Tue, 11 May 2004 00:59:59 GMT

Ugh, I so should have posted this earlier this morning, so it was still fresh in my head..as it is, now I've forgotten most of my dream. I remember that I had a dream last night that involved Veronica calling me. Veronica of all people. She asked me if I was going to date her again. This is mildly disturbing to me because she and I never dated, and she and I don't talk anymore. In fact, I rarely think of her as it is because doing so makes me feel like I'm a shit for the way I treated her at the end of everything. Very interesting indeed..

But on a lighter note, I'm done with school for the semester! My final was tonight and I only needed to get a 55 on it to get an A..and I'm positive I got more than that :)

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 16:04:28 GMT

In the past couple of days, I've had to blow off four people. I blew off Rich on Friday because of a somewhat serious matter with someone else that didn't end up getting resolved. I blew off Jake and Shannon last night, which I really feel bad about because it was Shannon's 21st birthday, and I haven't had a drink with Jake since he turned 21 yet. He didn't even really want to go, and wanted me to go so he would have someone to talk to. But dammit, Shannon could have chosen a closer bar to go to than one in Union..I don't like being that far away from my house if I'm going to drink, and I know I will drink if I go into a bar. Lastly, I had to tell Racine that she and I would hang out some other time because I had Rich over. I would have loved to see her, too, because she and I haven't even spoken since Wednesday. This whole business with her and Jen is really taking its toll on me. I really, like I've said numerous times, don't want to be in the middle of it all. I don't want to have to choose sides. They're both my friends and will continue to be so until either one either screws me over or simply decides to not be anymore. So yeah. Just hit me with a blunt object and get it over with. :)

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 17:35:37 GMT

What really sucks is that I can't even go to a store to exchange a defective movie without buying more movies. =P

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 05:39:43 GMT

Ok, I've made up my mind..as much as I want to, I'm not going to ask her out just yet. I know she's still upset about her breakup, and I know it's way too soon to ask. So for now, I'll be her friend..supportive, and a shoulder to cry on if needed. When she's ready, I'll ask. Just as long as I don't fuck it up by waiting too long...
It does bug me a little though..why now is she kissing me on my lips when she says goodbye? Ugh, must forget about things like that for now..
Cable modem tomorrow (hopefully)!

Sun, 18 Apr 2004 07:47:28 GMT

Well, tonight was a lot of fun..went to the club, got a little drunk, and actually danced for a lot of the night. I was actually really suprised at how much I danced. I mostly danced with cinnamongrrrrl, but I got to dance with Gaby to "Closer" by Nine Inch Nails as well. There was only one person I really wanted to dance with all night, but she found a dance partner early in the night and danced with him pretty much all night long. She and I finally got one dance in near the end of the night, which was nice. I'm definitely smitten..I'm in deep smit. I just want to know if she wants to date or not, and I really don't want to ask her, at least not directly. I'm just worried that I'm going to wait to find out, never do, and I'll finally ask..only to find out she's met someone else. I dunno. I think I know what I'm going to do..so I'll update about that after it happens.
Oh, on a side note..I ended up seeing someone I knew there at the club. This guy who comes in to wash the floors at my job once a week, Brian, was there..I thought it was rather strange to see him there..he and I talked for a little bit a few times during the night, he had me try a drink that was half Jack Daniels and half Red Bull, called a Flying Jack, and I ended up buying him one as well. So that was definitely the weirdest part of my night, seeing someone I knew. Heh.

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 12:21:18 GMT

Yesterday was definitely one of the best birthdays I've had in a while. Thank you to those who wished me a happy birthday, I appreciated it very much. Jen, once again I hope you had a good time last night..I had a great time in spite of Gaby being loud and drunk :)
Very interesting development last night..a change may have occurred that would be the best news I've had in a long time..I don't want to jinx anything right now, so I'll just hope and update more as I find out more. Let's just say that if I'm right, I'm going to be a very happy Jefe for a while :)